7-13-2007

Happy Friday the 14^th people!! It has been FAR too long since I have written anything for my site. I had been busy with school and such with is not an excuse, but that’s what I was doing. The last two weeks of school were complete CRAP. I was going on vacation to a Adrian event the weekend before school and was stressed over passing gym and getting my pots done in ceramics class. So one morning toward that Monday before the vacation my astronomy teacher gave the entire class a HUGE assignment, 90 questions that had to be answered from websites. It was a huge packet and had to be done quickly. Well I thought that this was shit and that we should not have to have done it. I thought, and always have, that it was cruel and unfair for the teachers to give students large assignments at the end of school, especially for seniors, we are so busy with other things, we don’t have the time for that crap. I also had a huge project in psychology class and was going insane trying to get those done and trying to get ready for the war I was going to that weekend. Since this assignment was on the internet I decided to get onto aim, even though we were not allowed to in that class, so that I could vent to my mom. I told her how pissed I was and was calling the teacher some names, yeah, I should not have done that, but still, I was pissed and venting to my MOM. Well the teacher was walking around the room trying to make sure everyone was working, they weren’t but they were all able to get back to a screen that showed they were working. He saw aim on my computer and took the computer to his desk. I thought this was then end of my computer, but I was wrong, about 5 minutes before the bell I got it back. I was shocked, he didn’t do anything but turn my aim off. I was still pissed though, from the assignment and that fact the he took the computer, I KNEW he would turn the convo into the office. I didn’t care anymore at this point. My friend and I had joked about having to get in school before we graduated because it is a school experience and the new in school teacher was cute. So I ended up making that come true. I went on a field trip the next day and when I got back I had to go directly to the principals office. She asked me what I thought I was there for, I said I could guess, and she told me to guess. I did and she went into this big discussion about how wrong it was and everything, by this time I had emailed an apology to the teacher, for one main reason, to get out of any punishment. To this day, I am NOT sorry for what I said or what I did, but that I had gotten caught. So the principal told me that the apology came too late and didn’t matter, and that they were going to give me a day of in school and take my computer for the rest of the year. I had to turn it in in a few days anyway, but still pissed me off. So by the next morning all the teachers had read my convo and I was hated among teachers and worshiped among the students. I have never done anything wrong in school before and believe this was COMPLETELY uncalled for. I had worked hard through my school life to get the teachers to like me and they all did, but one time that I blew up with my mom so that I could vent, they publish it to the school and 12 years are thrown down the toilet. So I no longer cared. I served the detention and gave up on the whole school system. Then at graduation practice my name got called that I didn’t return two books. Now, I had done all of my work and returned everything BEFORE the weekend so that I didn’t have to worry about anything during my vacation. One book was from a teacher I didn’t even have anymore. And the other was from a teacher who I already turned the book into. I thought that since I turned it in early maybe she forgot to mark it off. I talked to her after practice to see what was going on. She said that my number was off and that because of that she claimed I was lying about the book I turned in. She had written a one on her paper and It was a seven in my book, or the other way around, it don’t make a difference. She told me this wasn’t her problem and that I would either have to find the other book or pay for a new one. I told her that there IS no other book, and asked if she had one less then she started out this year with. She said no but that didn’t matter I fucked up. So I got my mom to pay for the book got my diploma at graduation then canceled the check so that the school got fucked like they fucked me. So graduation night I was about a half an hour early so I could get with a few of my friends for pictures and such. However, I was the first one to leave graduation. I wanted out, I did not want to stay any longer then I had to. The speeches at graduation sucked and the principal was dressed like a slut the whole time.

Any way, that was the last two weeks of school. I missed way too much school this year, but I passed each class, was able to make up all the gyms, lost 20 pounds, and was able to get all of my pots done. I even got the astronomy and psychology projects done. I was able to pass and get that little piece of paper, that’s all I wanted. I got it and it was so worth it to get that and then be able to rub a brand new car in their faces. That night I got my new car and went to eat at eat n park then a few days later I went back up to the school to take a picture of me and the car in front of the school. It is so great to be able to rub that in everyone’s face.

On to other things. How about this Chris Benoit story. More then likely, even if you are NOT a wrestling fan, you have heard about this one. This man in his 40s who was a professional wrestler was reported dead when he did not show up for a few WWE events. He had reportedly sent random texts to his friends, both from his cell phone, and his wife’s. Rumors had been flying around all day about what happened, clear into the night where WWE owner Vince McMahon decided to put all storylines on hold for the night to show a 3 hour tribute to Chris Benoit and his legacy in the wrestling world. The next day, by afternoon, everyone had known that this was beginning to look like a murder suicide. In the scene that the news played out for us, he tied up his 43 year old wife Nancy and ended her life by strangling her. The next day he smothered his 7 year old son Daniel, and yet the next day, hung himself in his weigh room with a rope from one of the machines attached to a 240 bound stack of weights. All of this took place over the weekend. The bodies of his wife and son were found in different rooms with bibles close to their heads. It even looks as though his wife put up a struggle. Benoit and his wife had been having problems, she had applied for a restraining order against him only to get back together with him a few months later. It is also believed that their son had Fragile X Syndrome which causes mental, physical, and behavioral dysfunctions. At first I thought this was a horrible story where a good man and his family were murdered. Then, as stories continued to change and get more dramatic, my opinions of the issue have changed. I now believe that he did this, the evidence is too much to say otherwise. However, I don’t know about drugs being involved, I mean it is completely possible and explains the snap, but it does NOT explain how long this snap lasted. I don’t think any of us will ever know exactly what happened. Even you ears from now, people are going to be coming up with reasons and excuses, but we will never know the full truth.

And that brings me to another point. JUST because this is WRESTLING does NOT mean that everyone should act surprised that someone is using steroids to help or fully support them. Would you people PLEASE, for one minuet, look at some other sports and their main players. First, let me correct myself, this is NOT a sport and Vince McMahon has ADMITTED that, this is ENTERTAINMENT. Yes, the matched are planned, normally weeks ahead of time to get a storyline to go right, but the injuries and tough ass lives are as real as you can get. STOP calling it a sport and STOP calling it fake. If you don’t get it now, you never will, and I don’t expect you to. But PLEASE do not look down on me or think I am stupid because I enjoy the show. Because if you continue to do so then you need to look in the mirror and ask yourself why YOU watch reality TV and soap operas. PLEASE do not be a fucking hypocrite. JUST because this is wrestling does not mean that people should say shame on those wrestlers, they are using drugs. Every other sport does it you just don’t hear about it. Because other sports are like apple pie and brownies, everyone loves them, but even they have traces of drugs.

Now on to even more things. Anyone see that Transformers movie?!?! GREAT MOVIE. When I saw previews for this one I was not interested, my mom was thought, she loved the comic book and TV show as a child and this was going to be a dream come true for her. I didn’t think it was going to be that great of a movie. I went to see it with her any way and within the first ten minuets I was HOOKED. I have seen it two times now and plan on at least a third. This is an AMAZING movie and NEEDS to been seen IN the theatre.

On to another movie. You all had to know I would talk about this one- HARRY POTTER. DAAAAAMN I saw this one at the midnight showing, bought my tickets 2 days early and HAD to dress up for this one. Another damn good movie that needs to bee seen in the theatre.

5-1-06:    

Ok- this is going to be a depressing one, after all it is suicidal Monday and I am part of the lost generation- right?  I am not lost, I know exactly where I stand, and I am going to tell you where that is.  I am in my boring geometry class in my over rated, hypocritical shit ass town school.  For school, every day, I get up at at least 6am to go to this school, or prison as I like to call it, where I don’t like too many of the people and even if I did they don’t care about me, even if they all like to pretend they do. 

 

Seriously, the government and the school say that they are working together toward the goal of "no child left behind".  Well I, as a "child" have some questions about this, and my questions still have not been answered... What about us "children" who were in 8th grade when this plan was set in forth.  We are screwed.  They expect us to do so much more- more than we even ever learned and its wrong, it's just hurting everyone.  I mean, I don’t even know my times tables let alone half the crap they are now teaching the little kids that they expect us to know.  How can they expect us to pass these tests when we didn’t even learn the stuff in them.  And speaking of these assessment tests- why the hell do we even have to take them- they are nothing but a test for the SCHOOL AND TEACHERS.  However, they school shoulders us with this and makes it count toward our graduation.  But back to the "no child left behind" act- what about the students in the adapted classes.  If you are a person who is in or was in one of these classes I am not poking fun or calling you a liar- but quite a few of my friends are in these classes and they don’t need them.  All they need is to do their homework and talk with the teacher, maybe even get a tutor.  The reason I say this is because I have helped my friends with their homework and they know what they are doing, they just need it explained better.  Most of the students in these classes need better explanations, more time on homework, and discipline. 

 

And for God's sake, STOP DRUGGING OUR YOUTH.  The minuet a child stands up for what they believe, do something wrong, or struggle in school their doctors put them on some sort of medication.  THIS IS WRONG.  Give them a chance.  This is their way of expressing their tastes.  And I think we should start blaming the parents for the way their children act- up to a certain age.  At this age I believe that it is a choice that the child has to make. 

 

And along the lines of schools that they have complete control over the students is bull.  School is to be a place of learning, and where a student should feel comfortable and safe, not a dictatorship.  However, that is what it is soon becoming.  All of the older teachers think they are better than everyone- including the students.  It is impossible to stand up for yourself when the teachers are there longer and the office will stand up for them.  Most of the people in our school will not even fight the school anymore, it’s not worth it.  Everyone knows that they don’t have a chance, especially against the older teachers. 

 

Why am I telling you this you may ask.  I have two stories to tell you that deal with this exact subject.  These both happened within the last week!  One- ok, I understand that my attendance is not as good as it should be, in fact, it’s shit, ok, I get that.  However, my teacher had no right to treat me the way he did.  Long story short- I had a field trip and was going to miss his class, I asked him about it at the beginning of class and he started to yell at me saying that he was not going to let me go and that even if he would let me go he would not let me make up the class.  Well he is one of the veterans ( I think he is retiring next year) and I knew I did not have a chance to fight with him.  He continued to yell at me like this for about ten minutes, no lie.  The entire class was talking quiet about how wrong he was and watched us.  It was wrong and berating.  The man has no clue why I had so many absences and had no right to assume. 

 

Second- when a teacher comes into a room full of students, a few hundred or so, and says “how something is going to be” and that those students do not have a choice in the matter, she deserves what she gets.  This teacher decided that she had a great idea and that she was going to force it on us and she did not care if we liked it.  She thought it would be great to make us all wear the same thing for our senior yearbook pictures.  Needless to say, this did not go over well with us.  Students may complain about taking pictures but if you would take away that right or take away their choice to wear what they want in the picture then the students miss the opportunity.  We were not mad that she wanted us all to look that same, though it did not help, but I think we were more angry that she approached it the way she did.  When a student asked what would happen if we refused, she asked nicely, we just wanted to know our options, the teacher said “well I guess you will not be in the yearbook then.  Now ten years from now, those pictures are the only thing that me have to bring back the memories of high school and if they try to make us all look the same then not only are they taking our individuality but they are also taking away the ability to look back and laugh at the fashion, to look back at who we were.  The only reasons they gave us for this change is that it would look good and uniformed and that they enter the yearbook into contests and this will help them win.  Since when was OUR yearbook supposed to make the SCHOOL look good in contest- here they are again using the students to make them look good- do it on your own time and in other ways.

 

So, as you can see, I know exactly where I am- don’t call me lost, and don’t try to fool me- Americans need to get off their high horse, wake up, and grow up- they need to realize what the real problem is and stop trying to cover it up or push it aside to forget to make it someone else’s problem.  We mad this world and we have to life in it, if we don’t start taking a stance we are just going to continue to think it is ok to be pushed around by anyone who has just a bit more power than us- its not ok. 

 

Wake up America

 

Until next time- It has been great

Jess

 

An update needs to be made- by now May 3^rd they have taken the “tux and drape” requirement off of the pictures- pictures begin tomorrow.  I guess when you all stand for something the school can be taken out.